Gravity - and Grace

This picture I took in upstate NY reminds me of the contrast of gravity and grace. The beautiful window and the Rocky poster seemingly at odds with each other.

I'm feeling the gravity of life tonight. With making a job change, there comes all sorts of changes and waves of stabbing emotion. So many loose ends in life before the new adventure begins. So many goodbyes. And, then, as I am heading off to sleep, as the heat of the day is tossed aside by a sudden cool breeze, I remember I forgot Judy's birthday. Happy Birthday, Judy.

I feel like I am on a loom and am being woven into something beautiful, unique, one of a kind. However, the weaving seems messy and complicated to me. I know it is not so to the Weaver. I know grace is right here with me, as I feel the weight of my life of gravity, bank statements, hotel reservations and eye doctor appointments.

So, tonight I am drawing and sketching regular objects around the house just to keep putting one foot in front of the other with my personal art challenge. I got an SD card reader today with the help of two grandsons, so maybe I will post a few drawings tomorrow.

Katie and I spoke about how being a mother is such a creative process and takes so much energy on so many levels. I remember those days so clearly of rocking, singing to, nursing, hugging and cuddling my four daughters. It took so much of my creative passion and energy. I had to set "artmaking" aside during those days. I just could not do both.

I walked little Calvin around and around today, in the stroller and in my arms, and it wasn't half of all my daughter did for him today. Hats off to you, Katie. (I wondered if the walking counted toward the 5K training I am doing each day???) Well, I am just feeling the gravity of life tonight reminding my soul how amazing grace is that saved someone like me....and hoping for sleep.